There have always been alot of things on my mind, if I thought of blogging it out.
But the ironic part is, whenever I want to post, my mind would go blank. Seriously blank.
Mmmmm. Today, I got a new task. And honestly, I wasn't that happy of getting that task. Cause I am certainly scare of how ppl will say and judge. Honestly, who like to be judged? Mmmm. And ya. It's really a fear for me now to stand on the stage now. I rather I be just a simple church member. Not participating in anything and at least I wouldn't be hurt by ppl's words. Mmmmm. It's really tough. It's easy to say not to care. But when you are the one being accused of doing something that you didn't even have the thought of doing it. Sigh. That's humans, isn't it? I realize, sometimes I appear to b happy, but I am not necessarily happy anymore. Why is it so? I don't know the reason why. All I know is if I could hide my sadness well, nobody will ask nor probe about it. Isn't it better? Maybe that's why I feel the more tired. Sigh :(

And I have learnt and come to a conclusion, if being friend is so hard, then why not stop the torturing for both side? What's the difference if one side has already made the decision. Ignorance is bliss. Now I agree with the simplicity and beauty of this sentence. Ignoring that it once hurt, till it does not hurt anymore. Well, one day, I believe I can do it.

continue judging me if it pleases you :)