Is there sometimes when you felt like you were redundant?
That you wanna be so close yet kept so far away?
That you wanna be a part of everything but yet being pushed aside?
You want so much to be recognized and cherish by someone you love and pushing away others who love you.
Is all these worth it?
Is it?

As much as I have said, it wouldn't get through.
Seems like this whole thing is my fault
Why am I even putting in so much effort?
When will you wake up, shuiting?
That everything's not gonna be like what you want
That no matter how much effort and chance are not enough?
How many times must you cry before it's enough?

There will be one day that I can let go
And maybe by then, it won't hurt so much anymore :")