So fast, i have been staying at my cousy house for the third day, looking after those two cute monsters. HAHA:D They have indeed been naughty but cute at the same time.

Learn pretty lots of stuff.
Learn how to handle with kids mostly.

And, God did something cool for me too!

From very long ago, i wanted to get a book named "On The Anvil" by Max Lucado.
But since i wanted to get that book, i saw several other books by the author at the shop.
So i asked him what should i get and he recommended me other books as he say will be more relevant to me as he say the book "On the Anvil" have quite little stories so i decided to forgo it. But i really want that book alot. But after awhile, i guess i make do with the other books that i bought. So ytd afternoon, when all of them was sleeping. I went exploring in their hse study room. Then i was looking through the book shelf and i saw Lucado. And i took it out, it was that book. Except that it was an older version of it but still the same!
God was indeed good to me. I was still thinking of catching a nap or watching tv, but the sudden thought of exploring their study room came in to me when i was in the toilet.

And indeed the book carries alot of reminders and encouragements to me.
It shows me that God love is forever enough for me to use.
I really learnt alot.
I learn the parable of the new wine is for fresh skins said by Jesus in the parables.

In the book, it states, by putting new wine into an old skin, it will be lost as it will spoil the old skin. That was always what i read from the bible. Nothing more. I don't think anymore. But think for a minute, do you have any new skins that need to be thrown out? Look closely in your closet. They come in all kinds of sizes and shapes. Maybe yours is an old indulgence- food, clothes, sex. Or an old habit- like gossip or profanity or possible like the story that the author gave- Steve, who can't let go of an old relationship.

If you can't let go of all these in your life, Jesus cannot come into your life.
It's either Jesus or those old indulgence/habits that you have or hold on to.
But no friendship or romance is WORTH YOUR SOUL.
REPENTANCE SIMPLY MEANS CHANGE.
Don't come to God repenting repenting repenting and end up walking out the church door with a heart and mindset that is not change AT ALL. God does not need that. He knows we need.
And change means PURGING your heart of anything that CAN'T COEXIST with Christ.

You can't put new life into an old lifestyle.
The inevitable tradegy occurs.
The new life that Jesus wants to give to you is lost at your own foolishness and stubbornness.
Make a decision.

Christ or you?



And i have decided, i wanna let go of everything that is holding me back with God.
Be it my past, my character or whatever.
I am gonna give it to God.
I want Him.
Cause only His love can fill me up.
All the love that i have been looking for or going after doesn't fill me up or make me full.
It just makes me feel more empty then before and losing somethings of mine.
i don't want.

I DON'T WANT!

If i have to be selfish so that my future will be better, i will be.
So if i have to hurt you to make me grow and let go, i will.
Cause i know that's worth it.
If in the future, i can't get married or what.
It's alright. At least i know i have done my part for making my life better.

So please, move on with life together with me.
Move on.
It hurts.
But short term is always better than long term pains.





God always put things in our life for us to learn valuable lessons.








"To live is Christ, and to die is gain."