“God’s business is putting things right.” Psalm 11:7

i don't know what i can do.
i know i should take the first step out.
but i just dont know how to take the first step out.

had that sudden rush that i should do it last sunday.
but dont ask me why,
but i didnt do it.

ahhhh
God,
help me.
Holy Spirit, teach me what to do.

it still hurts.
somehow it still does.
i didnt wish that things end up like this.
really.
maybe no one would really understand my this sentence.
but i,
really had no idea why things turned out so ugly.
i am not blaming you or what
cause.
maybe like last time.
it was my fault again.

Teach me what to do.
Teach me how to be happy in You.
Though so many things are happening.

Keep my spirit joyful in You,
guide me through every single thing.


i still love you as a sister.
i really do.
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but i just dont know what else can i do