Just reached home.
i think i managed to shock some people on the way home just now.

I think i really look like an idiot just now.

I was pondering over some question.

Still thinking,
Still confuse,
still very confused.

Thought alot on my way home.
Think i have carried alot of load on my journey.
But what can i do to put it down?

I may seem happy on the outside.
But, i am really kind of sick of this life.
Not life,
but myself?
I am not asking or seeking for any pity.
But, does anyone know how i feel?

"God in us! Have we sounded the depth of this promise?

God was with Adam and Eve. God was with Abraham. God was with Moses and the children of Israel. God was with the apostles.

But he is in you. You are a modern-day Mary. Even more so. He was a fetus in her, but he is a force in you. He will do what you cannot.

Can't stop drinking? Christ can. And He lives within you.

Can't stop worrying? Christ can. And He lives within you.

Can't forgive the jerk, forget the past, or forsake your bad habits? Christ can! And He lives within."






I really lost alot, so much that i don't know where to start counting.
I may have hurt others alot too,
but how many know i am hurt in the process too?

Seems like my 属灵恩赐 are coming true.

I lost alot, all the pride, confident in myself or any relationship.
But if losing all these can make me gain You,




i am willing to let go everything.