I have been wondering whether the decision i made is correct.
To certain extent,
i even feel like doing something about it.
But thank God, i could still hold myself from doing anything wrong.
If not, i guess i will just create more awkwardness.

And i saw this verse just now,
just as i was asking for an answer which always didnt come.

“Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves.” Philippians 2:3 NASB

It suggests a self-preoccupation that hurts others. A divisive arrogance.

Looking after your personal interests is proper life management. Doing so to the exclusion of the rest of the world is selfishness.

It really made me pause and think about what i wanted to do.

Am i really doing it for us or for my own desire?

And i came to a conclusion.

It has been hard, since its me who wanted this new clear cut ever since don't know when.

It has been tough on my side,
being treated as a piece of glass,
and a lot other feelings that i shall not elaborate.

I guess choosing a decision to follow Him isn't that easy after all.
I know i am not good enough,
i may be weak at times.
But i believe He is strengthening me every min in my life.

Do all things for the good of others and not for myself.

Simple but also at the same time hard to do it.

I am Yours.
All i want now, is to be Yours.
Cause?

*Cause You paid the price, i give You my life.
I'm Yours.

So no matter what the cost, i will go for You.
no matter what it takes, i am Yours.
Becuase You paid the price at calvary.
I give You my whole life, I'm Yours.

Oh Lord, my everything,
to You i lift.
My heart and soul, i'll lift.
For You alone,
i'm not my own.

My life, is Yours.

Cause You paid the price, I give You my life.
i'm Yours.

Cause You paid the price, i give You my life.
i'm Yours.

So no matter what the cost,
i'll go for You.
No matter what it takes,
i'm Yours.
Because You paid the price at calvary
i give You my whole life.

I'm Yours

It's gonna be even tougher ahead,
who ask me to create so much problems for myself?

i just hope there will be someone holding me along the way,
pulling me up even when i fall hard.

And at the end, waiting for me to finish this race.