i wonder when can i get out of all this?
why am i always bringing trouble to people?

i guessed i hurt someone very deeply this time
there are so many things that i want to say
but, situation that i am in now just doesnt allow me
i feel so.
Arg.
storybook is ending? perhaps it is.
and i guess you won't even be reading this since you hated me so much

everyone's saying i am in the wrong.
i hurt someone so deep
but does anyone know the hurt in me too?

well, probably nobody cares too

today we shared on something
who are you?
3 options
1.Someone who do things as you like as you wish
2.Someone who do things just as what people expect then to do
3.Someone who live for God

i guess ideally everyone wanna go for the 3rd option
but,
it isn't that easy i guess
but its the best option out of everything compared to 1 & 2.

When can i start living my life for Him?

there are really so many regrets in my life that i don't even wish to think abt it

why am i always used by people too?

why do people always regret after doing things wrong?

so many questions, so many so many
that u just feel like running away to somewhere far?


that,
reminds me of a song..

"When question surmount and answer failed to come.
When fear creeps in with every doubt that counts.
When word seem empty and hope is waning thin.
My heart releases a deep crying within.

*Hold my faith strong,
let me not fall.
Father carry me, when my walk is a crawl.
Lead me through the rocky terrain.
Help me get back on my feet again, on my feet again.

When life takes a turn and blue skies go grey.
When my world is spining and my trust betray.
When storms arise and waves pursue,
and i feel like i'm drowing
oh i need Your rescue."

our admission of hunger is the only demand, for
"Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for rightousness, for they shall be filled."

i dont wanna stuck here as i am

But,
i really don't know what else i can do
:"(