This past few days have been a torture to me.
Really. i have no mood for everything
that i screwed up my exams too.
u guys will be thinking i deserve it
well, i think that's the truth
i guess i am so affected that i have been thinking abt it almost every second and minute
i feel so tired
i tried so hard
through many ways

ignoring, trying to be happy, trying to get close.
but,
i just keep hitting the nails
):
why?
why is all this things happening?
i tried so hard to ignore them but
what you said to me today really affected me

i ruin the close-ness that i build so hard
for so long
and i ruined it just over one night
one night?
i have nothing else to say about myself too
i am just equally disappointed in myself too