i feel like avoidiing everything
everything that i can avoid
if i was given the chance
i want to run away from all these
if there is a hole for me to run in and hide now
i will dash towards it now and stay there till everything is gone

so many maybe's

maybe it will happen

maybe ba

i feel so tired
as usual ba

but now
mentally, physically
and spiritually

i know others are looking
that's why now i want a clear line between everything

but somehow u just don't understand
maybe i am too demanding i guess

thought we have made everything so clear

but why is all the doubts and question coming from?

they caught me unguard

i don't know how to move on Lord
teach me
i don't wanna stuck here
i don't wanna keep complaining, compairing

i believe i went through more than others
just because You wanna show me how much You love me
but its hurting

i don't know from where everything started to went wrong
i started to depend on ppl
i started looking around for the love in ppl which i thought i can find

i just want that perfect love
can You give me?

make me fill contented with Your love
that's all i want
that's all i want
i know i have done alot of things wrong

i am just just walking around now looking for some love that could fill me up
but i dont want that
i really don't want
cause i know that doesn't last

God, what else can i still do for You?


[i've been forgiven by a saviour who did not deserve death.

He was blameless but i was lost in shamefulness.

i'm delivered but it doesn't seem right,
unless i keep my eyes on the saviour who gave His life.




- i will take up MY CROSS
and follow
Lord where You lead me.
i will take up my cross and follow wherever You go.]