who would understand whats going inside of me?
i really feel overwhelmed by what's happening
there is this one song that could best describe what i am feeling now
wo hen mei li by yue shu ya i guess
but i cant find it anywhere
hmmm
really describes how i feel

I feel lonely and afraid,
alone walking on this road.
Thought i was contented with what i have,
but it seems that i lost everything

and have nothing in my hands
Facing myself with tears,
the heavy steps that i take,
no matter how hard i work
It still doesn't make things right.

Why? My heart tells me to stop crying.
I want to give You my hand, legs and body
the smallest things i could.

Cause of You
I am beautiful,
Because of You i will love myself even more.
A hug or a warming smile,
could let me just fly freely.

I am beautiful,
Your love let me believe in myself
I do not need to be afraid or lonely.
You'll be there for me,
With me.

You couldn't except the truth,
what about me?
i am willing to dig everything out
to just be honest with u
what did i get back?
its no longer whose correct and wrong

so many things coming in again
AGAIN
things seems to be on the bad side with ppl
i seem to be making so many ppl leave church
it hurts me
really
why cant everyone just forget about people's past and move on?
Will things be good only if we focuses on the past?
What will it do good to leave church?
maybe
its good in some ways

i really wanna learn how to hand things to You
but too many of them are coming in that
i dunno how to face them

All the thoughts in me are running wild
so wild that i dun think i can tame them
i am tired
really
when can i stop facing all these?
when can i start seeing You work in my life?

You know how much i wanted to put behind my past
but
did anyone give me the chance?

Lost for words.
I am really lost for words this round