i dunno how long i can last
being stagnant in my religion is not a gd thing
but i thank God for reminding me
i certainly do feel barren and dry
and thats because i have been putting me heart elsewhere
i seem to be listening to ppl's prob rather than facing my own prob
what doesn't make me fall, makes me stronger
God's growing my capacity
thats what i have to believe
God is growing my capacity
guess i will have to take more breaks from things that distract me from him
this is what one of my friend told me
and
how true is it?
i seem to be listening to too much things more than i can take
my faith in God isnt that strong now
thats all i can say
all the things that i heard start making me doubt God' provision too
i think that was because after listening to those prob
i didnt bring them back to God
but continue swallowing them down myself
thinking that i can do it myself
but
when is all these going to stop?

when i start focusing on God again?
some of my friends seem to be going through a tough patch
i dunno how i can encourage them
its always like that
i can help by listening but not on advices
God please, Restore me
You know how tired i am now

Holy spirit
please come and lead me
i dont know where i am eventually heading towards
i may be living in this world
but i dont want to belong here

i want to start experiencing You
and not stuck here lamenting on my lost
i haven lost anything
You are here with me
together
thats what i will choose to believe and not what the devil is telling me
strengthen me
its easy to say how i love You during times of good
but whether or not that i love You
is based on the times of hardship
i dont want to keep my eyes focus on things that are bad
but rather on you
all You want is this heart that love You
please teach me how to do that
i am willing to learn
i am really willing to learn
:"(

i love You Jesus