i learned something today!
abt Janet jie sharing
it really did impacted me alot
and
it feel like in a way
God is reminding me
patting me on my shoulders to tell me its okay to fall but stand up after that
cut it short
she said she once teach some ppl flag
and one of that person couldn't play the pattern of friendship because
that person has poor relationship with ppl
how does that links to me?
i got frustrated with myself today
or maybe to say
the past few days
practicing for ruwa
using tambourine
i just simply can't make my hand straight
and lead to the ' broken arms' known in dance
i really got disppointed with myself
no matter how hard i tried
nothing seems to work
and after Janet jie shared her experience
something in me trigger me to think
why cant i play the tamborine freely
the pattern is called - rejoice yen
rejoice
REJOICE!
that was when i realise how many times God has tried to make me realise this word
by placing different ppl in my life to led me
i never seem to understand this word even though i may seem to be very cheerful on the front
like what i read in a book
it said
its easier for those who are longer in Christ to hide themselves
to put on a mask to church as though nothing happen
Lord
i don't want to be that kind of person
Lord
i only want to be cheerful for You
for You alone
no matter what i may face in my life
with You
nothing is ever going to be bigger than You
Lord
i just can't walk out of my past
i just cant be that happy like others
Lord, i pray for You to be with me
Lord, be with me
free me from this world temptations
let me response to Your love everyday in my life
Lord Jesus
fill this vessel with more of You
i yearn for an intimate experience with You
that no one and simply nothing could take this away from me
Lord
help me
cause i know Your are always there
when i am sad or happy
listen to my heartbeat
every single one of it
thats my prayer
listen to my every heartbeat and tell me that You know everything
Lord
i pray for a breakthrough in my life
cause Lord
i am tired of just simply living each day
for each day to pass
Lord
led this dance team in Your own way too
let this be a dance team that glorifies Your name
give us the discipline to discipline ourselves for You
Lord
i thank You
i thank You for everything that happen in My life
Lord
those things that i once see as a burden
Lord,
You carried them away and let me see that You have better plans
and those things are a blessing in disguise
Lord
You are amazing
You work in wonderful ways
Lord
forgive me for the time when i grumble
Lord
forgive me of the time when i got emotional
Lord
forgive me for the time when i got jealous of people
angry with people
purify this vessel for Your own use
and God
like in today worship
what i prayed i meant it
if this is the position that You want me to serve You in
Lord
i am gonna give my 100 %
even though ppl may not see how much i went through
i know its not important anymore
cause
You are all i need
all that i need is You
maybe to ppl
i am making a mess in my life
Lord
work out in my life as i give You full control of my life this night
this very night
Lord
i offer my life up to You again
Lord, be magnified in my life so that others may see You in me
i don't want to share the gospel but be the gospel to people
Lord
You have planned every SINGLE DETAILS in my life
and i am gonna trust in You and walk
Lord, don't let this be just a prayer
but God
make this happen
as Your daughter yearn for You
fill everyone that seeks for You Lord
Lord, led me by Your hands
so that i can walk in Your righteous way
and i thank You for my job
for planning so well for me
Lord
let me help my employer and not create trouble
God
i am also gonna give my 100% cause its for You also
Thank You Jesus
-thank You Jesus
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