on fri i saw her msging him
i was shocked when i saw her msging him
it was like
the feeling of being betrayed?
i dunno what is her msging him abt
but i only know i certainlk dun like the feeling
is like i thought i could trust her
thats why i told her my things
but
i dunno
then when i saw her msging him
she was like telling me
its complicated
complicated?
what does it means?
what am i suppose to say?
so
i acted as though i was fine and walked away
but
deep inside
i was hurt
thoughts of her
which is maybe her who told him just flash in my mind
i dunno what to do le
but
trust me
i am not going to tell her any of my secrets again
not anymore
and him
why does he have to do all this?
its really getting up my nerves to be honest
its him
whom started going around knowing my friends
and asking them abt me
what is this God?
and
please
which part of me looks like a delivery man?
u like it when ppl approach u and say
can u help me pass this to that person?
i dunno what to say
and i know that all those small things that u do or plan
u did it with some like things behind it
asking my friends before u do it
i dunno why i am so angry
all i can say
is
irritating
but i am not gonna let this affects me
if satan is trying to attack me
no way man
the more u try to make me leave church
the more i won't do it man
i won't let u suceed
and to praise God
i thank Him for my eng oral just now
thank Him for still
in control of my life even though i am like screwing up every part of my life
and also dunno why
ytd
i got so emo
not emo
just dun feel like talking to ppl actually
and huihui jie started talking to me
and so
i broke down
i shared with her what was going through my mind
at least maybe now
i know there is someone for me to turn to and share
hmmm
i suddenly find that with her aroud its like God blessing for me in disguise?
from the start of me in this church
she has been there to lead me
thanks hui hui jie
and of course michelle, zt, weicong, sunmei jie, him, ama, cheryl, delora and most important of all
God
hmmm
and really
cell with huihui jie back again was like different
it was like so fun
and we like spend almost the whole cell laughing away
hmm
though there are many things that i see that breaks me down
God, i still wanna thank You for what You have done for me
thank you Jesus