just finished reading someone's blog
have been thinking abt some things recently cause as usual
alot of things happened
i was wondering
why can others serve God so well?
why am i like getting further and further from Him each day?
why am i like keep doing the wrong things?
why have i disappoint ppl again?
why have i hurt someone that i didn't want to hurt?
why why why? alot of whys are going through my brain now
to me, there are some things that i will not share with ppl.
cause i believe that not many ppl know what i am thinking and what i am going through
therefore, i choose to keep some things to myself
even when on the outside i look normal and cheerful
sometimes, i am just not who i am before
i want to find someone
just that someone who i can really say out my things
but
where is the someone?
i know i shouldn't compare, God
but teach me how to not compare, lead me on
cause i really don't know what i should do anymore
i don't know who i am already
kind of tired of this kind of life
the person that i don't wanna hurt
seems to me that i hurt her so hard
ppl say that she don't blame me
but
who know's best?
maybe in others eyes
the portrait of me is already painted black
i don't want to care how others see about me
i only want to know Your view about me
cause i know i am nothing without You
i wanna hold on to You tight
let me hold on to You tight too
cause my life without Your presence
i really will not know how to pass each day